Prodigal Outcast

Well here we are again in the "War Room" and yet again they are enlisting me into yet another one of their messes! The only thing is that it really isn't their mess, this is something that the NYSPD can handle really. The only thing that makes this "special" is that one of their team members fell in action. I know what it is to loose someone but still it seems more a personal vendetta rather than a mission, and quite honestly I'm getting sick and tired of dealing with their personal matters!

To top it off, I am now coming into question as to why am I there, and why this and why that, and why why why why why why why... Wow I have never heard so much complaining in my life, and they think themselves soldiers??? Honestly they are a blasphemy to all whom don the colors of the honor guard world wide. Besides it seems the norm to question and talk back to superiors here, wow the lack of discipline and camaraderie is insane but still I give them the benefit of the doubt because honestly I know I can not tackle everything by myself, but still they make me feel out of place.

I'm in a strange land, with strange values and strange mannerisms that would have been deemed inexcusable in my home, hell had I done even one of the many things they did I would have been executed and yet they have the nerve to question my value!!!??? Unfortunately they will learn someday how to value listening over action when one of them is felled and by that time it would be too late, heck one of them was made to feel as helpless as I feel with this team so maybe, just maybe I can have an ally in Ultra Major, but I will not hold my breath he is the epitome of America after all, a Captain America clone sort of speak.

I am concerned with this robots tactics, it is an unusual specimen in the fact that it does not do rash decisions even though they may want to paint it as such. It is extremely calculating taking into account every detail and therefore acting only in response to test theories. I am afraid that once it feels it has collected enough data it will use it to defeat the team easily and with little effort. The secret lies in it's makeup and how to defeat this fabrication. One interesting note of worth, seems that what happened to Ultra Major was purely by happenstance and go figure that peanuts are his weakness, wow! He need not worry though I need not act against him, he is not my enemy and even if he were I would be able to handle him otherwise without having to take cheap advantages. However it should never come to that if I can develop a strong rapport with him, which I hope I can.

If the robot wasn't bad enough poor Justin seems to go from bad to worse and hell it's only the beginning, he's on a level all his own with regards to "Murphy". Seems the universe is decided "TAG!, YOUR IT!" It sucks because there is nothing I can do to help him and he's one of the few that deserves my help, actually if not for him or Psyche I wouldn't even be with this team at all, these are the only two whom seem to keep the single minded focus of what needs to be done and just do it! Their teammates should take a page out of their book and learn to do the same, but I have had enough discussing what I think of the "team" it is redundant now and if they haven't gotten it they perhaps never will.

As for Brolic. Oh man I have no idea who this new guy is, but he sure as hell picked the wrong one to mess with. I am going to hate putting down someone whom is a just individual that fights for the cause but I may have no choice in doing so just to teach everyone a lesson in manners! Talk about getting off on the wrong foot, but man it just seems that I keep doing that with everyone on this team with a few minor exceptions but even then I'm not liked at all! Good news is I'm not in this for popularity purposes or ego trips, but it's going to suck even less when I humiliate this said Brolic. I honestly think he's a liability and should be put off of this mission, also he should have a psyche evaluation as well to seem if he's still fit to wear the colours and remain in active duty. The sad part is that if he were to undergo that he would be seen as unfit to continue and would then become a nuisance, a pest, an incorrigible dog that would have to be put out its misery as though he had rabies. I have never let anyone get at me ever but this one here he's done opened up a can of whoopass on himself he just doesn't know it yet.

I guess now I understand why I operated alone all these years, I just never could relate to people and the small nuances and subtleties. I have a 310 IQ, wield reality as my toy, expertly trained in tech and medicine, and I have a fascination for all things Alien. Yeah to call me weird is an understatement, so I walk my path alone as always just doing what I need to do to maintain my own sanity. I don't hate my life but I have grown to accept my fate, now I just have to carry it out with honor and dignity, despite the nay-sayers, I will face my end standing on my feet giving my all for what I believe is right and that is the feeling I'm holding on to despite all the fiasco that has occurred. Not that I care for the accolades or to even be a footnote, but my hope is to have been able to make a difference just once in my life in order for my parents to be proud of me no matter where they are now, may god keep them save! Funny how one's Demons seem to grab a hold of them when pitted to face obscurity.